At night, when i was little
when i had just come to danach
i'd pretend that we'd soon go back to earth, to china
just my father and me
but now he is always flying
to this cathair or that island
and i hardly get a chance to see him
i'd like to talk to him, long, good talks
but now there is only time to say goodbye between departures
my father always promises me that
he will take me on the next flight, to some tropical part of danach
but my mother always says i am needed here, at home
my mother wins; my father leaves
my father is awol
absent without my leave
oh father, take my hand
take me out to the dragons, please
we'll get on a copper and fly away
i speak to you, daughter
as i would to a little green plant
i watch as you grow taller every season
water you with wisdom
clip your branches, in case you grow too wild
i provide rich soil for you here in this new world
this poor gardener asks you but one thing:
when you grow to your full height,
you are to provide shade
for your older mother
you are a wonderful little plant, my daughter
i see the sunlight in your eyes
i can tell you about the sensation of flight
the business in one cathair and another
the best keeps
the best dragonriders
the best food
i cannot tell you how old my daughter is
her mother would know
i can't tell you what clothes she wears, what music she likes, and what her favorite thing is to do when she has nothing to do
her mother would know that, too
yes, i have interests all over the world
important meetings to attend, people to save, cargo to shipfly, really
i don't take care of business at home
why don't you ask her mother?
The healer keep?
i think it's near the utopian cathair
why are you going there?
you don't look sick.
healing? you say you want to be a healer? get real, girl.
you can get that information from a book.
you don't need to be trained.
why you wanna help sick or hurt people, anyway?
as for me, i ain't got no stomach for that.
and i've got enough problems, as it is, than to help someone with theirs.
you're still going there?
oh, you're meeting someone.
yeah, it's by Utopian.
I forget which.
back when i was a little girl
people were more serious
they weren't getting hurt from stupid things like
daring their friend to try to tame a hunterfish
swimming with the tabriz
or stealing a starry dragon's egg
no, they were interested in preserving life,
not playing with it
and the Healers healed the Heart
now i am a healer
i heal the foolish as well as the wise
i heal the poor and i heal the rich
i tend to the important as well as the nobodies
and i try to heal the heart
oh, and i hire apprentices. you interested?
what's your name again? kuala li?
why do you want to be a healer?
you want to help people?
well, that serves as an introduction, but it's not the whole story.
the daughter i had was bright and beautiful
in the quiet language of mothers and daughters
she learned at my knee
and then, as she grew older
at my elbow and finally
at my level, where, these days,
we don't see eye to eye very much anymore
she's away, on the sea with a rambunctious sailor and raising strange snakes
she grudgingly comes home whenever they dock
when we replay the old arguments,
fighting about everything from her boyfriends
to my 'outdated' clothing
i love her, but i don't like her as much as we both
count down the days until she goes back to that ship
we had to many battles
to ever walk again along
the sweet serene path of loving trust and friendship
i look now to kuala li
i realize that in my teaching her
what i know, what i do
i'm trying to fix the damage
i did to myself, i did to my daughter
who is so bright and beautiful
Anque treats me like i was her daughter
if i sneeze, she asks if i'm feeling alright
if i cough, she asks if i'd like some of her special cherry bark tea
if i can't reach some supplies she asks if i need a ladder
whenever i run an errand, tend a sick person,
stew numbing salve, get out the bandage,
she thanks me as if i had performed
the most difficult task imaginable
whenever i learn something new about healing
she marvels at my intelligence
in her eyes, i can do no wrong
i am the best worker she was ever had
in my mother's eyes, i can do no right
i am the worst worker she has ever known
can both these people truly be me?
anque is like a mother to me
i wish my own mother were more
like a mother to me
hey, man, you won't catch me there.
it's for those who don't know what they're doing.
i'm real careful.
so why am i going?
it's my mother.
she's got a real bad cough
so she sent me for some
special bitter-sweet cough syrup
so i'll just run there and back.
you wanna wait? i'll only be a sec.
you work here?
i come here all the time.
never saw you, though
i need some help with my heart, you see.
can you help me?
can i take you out?
what do you mean,
you "don't circulate"
where you been, man?
you gotta get out to the track
how come you took so long?
they givin' away stethoscopes or somethin'?
a girl? what girl?
you crazy, man?
you tryin' to make a healer?
you puttin' your money on the wrong filly
what do you mean, she's a Thoroughbred?
what did you do, check her teeth?
how much do you wanna bet
if she's that gorgeous
someone else's riding her to the finish line?
how much you wanna bet
if she's the class of the field
you ain't gonna win, place, or show?
you comin' with me to the track, or what?
i ain't gonna wait for you.
face it, anque, you want to hire me
for the healer squad i'm your man
i'm young, strong, and very good-looking
You need patients moved?
You need supplies picked up?
You need to keep the families
of the patients
I'll be better than anyone you can get.
What do I like about the Healer's Keep?
To tell you the truth, Anque,
It's not the healing, it's the quiet.
The halls, the cathairs, the whole Cathair,
They're so noisy, you can't hear yourself think,
(not to mention, in my Keep, where thinking is completely
out of the question).
Everyone screaming at each other.
This is the one sane place, besides the beaches, that I can come to.
I got the job? You mean it?
I love you, Anque, I won't let you down.
I'll be working with Kuala Li?
Who's that? The girl over there?
Is she new?
I've never seen her before.
"Hey man, what you doin' in the Healer's area?"
"I work here, remember. You?"
"Just chillin', couldn't hack pilot training today.
"Hey, where's the girl I seen you with?"
"I got put in the we're-good-friends category."
"That's messed up."
"All girls suck. Didn't I see you hittin' on Kuala Li?"
"I was, but she shot me down.
In a nice way, though."
"I hear she's a psycho."
"I hear she's an angel."
"I hear she's goin' away to another Cathair."
"I hear she's going to drop out."
"You gonna try again?"
"I'm thinking about it.
The way she locks on to you
With those eyes of hers?
Man, she seems to know what you're
Thinking and it's all right.
You don't feel like an idiot
Talking to her.
And she doesn't giggle like girls do."
"Maybe that's love."
i hate kuala li
because she is
the most popular girl around
she is a
who thinks only of herself
she stabs you in the back
while looking you in the face
once, when i had a problem with my parents
she turned a deaf ear and said
"what do i care?"
i hope she gets everything
that is coming to her
she certainly is one of a kind
but try telling that to her teammate
i love kuala li
because she is
the most popular girl around
she is a
who thinks only of other people
she touches you in the heart
while looking you in the face
once when i had a
problem with my parents
she let me lean on her shoulder and said
"i really care"
i hope she gets everything that is coming to her
she is certainly one of a kind
but try telling that to the rojas girl
whenever miss kuala li walks on by
we people in the hallways look at her
she is a foxy chick from sole to crown
clean-favored, but sexy, most would concur
and she is always quietly arrayed
and is always human when she talks
but still she flutters pulses when she says
"good morning" and she glitters when she walks
and she is cool, yes cooler than a queen
and admirably schooled in every grace
in fine we think that she is everything
to make us wish that we could kiss her face
so on we work and wait for the bell
and go without supper and drill each other
and miss kuala li every springtime night
goes home alone to an unseen mother
girl that was you wasn't it?
that was you at the club
shakin' your booty so bad
it made grown men cry
first i says to myself it ain't you
you're too high and mighty to get down
you're too clean to get dirty
you're too cool to be so hot
but it was you wasn't it?
no i ain't playin'
i ain't talkin trash
even though it was dark
with all kinds of colors flashin'
i know white when i see white
and girl, there was a whole lotta white i seen
what was you wearin?
there was more flesh on you than fabric
you callin' me a liar? i'll smack you
wish i had a camera to prove it
cuz girlfriend you was definitely
so i'm at the club
dancin with my honey
horizontally maybe later
when he looks over my shoulder and says low
like i don't know what he's sayin
"check out that asian thing over there.
she pure vanilla."
i spin him around and
see kuala li starin at my man
"what you lookin at?" i says
she lowers her eyes
"what you lookin at?" i says, louder
"what you makin a scene fo?" my honey says
that ain't right
he stickin up
for that white bitch, so i says
"you be wanting vanilla? go right ahead
cuz you certainly ain't gettin no chocolate"
"i'm just lookin, that's all"
"lookin is wantin" i says,
turnin round but not before saying
"you can play with her,
or you can play with your own fat-assed self.
i'm going home."